Winning the Battle with me

I had a tough couple of days and I feel like I have been extremely successful in keeping my thoughts positive. I had to have a tough talk with my ex about our daughter but it went surprisingly well. I feel a little renewed. I said what I felt and I didn't shrink back from what I needed to say. Doing things like this make me feel strong. Make me feel like I AM in control of my life and the things that happen to me. I also spent the entire day without any make up on my face. I decided that this should be added to the list. So today i did not put product on my hair or eyeliner on my face. I went au' naturale'! It felt good and when I saw myself in the mirror I tried to think of one positive thing about my self. I always try to cover up my very rosy cheeks. But today they were naked in public! And I thought 'hey i bet some women would kill to have these bright rosy cheeks!' I ran my fingers through my hair and thought how soft it felt and how much I like doing that. (I can't usually because I put a sculpting putty in it) The person I recognize today is my mom. She is always my moral center and my rock. Every time I feel like my world is crumbling around me she picks me up and centers me. The world always makes sense again after I talk to her. I want to be that kind of mom for my girls. I have always admired my mom and as a mom myself I have always tried to emulate her rock solid mothering techniques. The way I see it is 'if it ain't broke, don't fix it!' So thanks Mom for making my world better!